gone

im just gone. simple.

bullshit bullshit bullshit bullshit.

so fed up with all this boundary crap.
so fed up with you.

never

i've never realized how bad my self esteem was until today. it's almost like im feeding to my problems too. i manage to make it worse by not eating, but that's just how i make myself feel better. oh well. i'll just see where this gets me.

i've

never felt homesick and for some reason now i do. i haven't been home for more then 10 days and i miss everything back home. i just want to feel stable again and it's wierd i have absolutely nobody to go to here. i can't even go to my mom because i'm afraid of her, literally. i never thought that would happen again, but i am. i just feel alone in my own world and i don't want to be.

hm

i don't even know how i am at this point. i might be good i might not be. oh well. i think things are good & im happy, let's see how long this lasts.