You

You can’t help who you love. You definitely can’t chose who you fall for. You just got to accept it and love them. You have to ignore what people say if they say you can do better. You need to watch what you say. You must be conscience of every move you make just so you don’t lose the one you love. You need to give them compassion when they need it the most. You need to let them comfort you whenever you need it. You need to disagree with them, don’t just agree with everything they say. You must give them your sweetest kisses. You should wipe away all of their tears and hold them the whole night. You should smile whenever you see them walking your way. 

There is so many “you’s”, but you know you can only hope that they do everything in return for you. They must love you as much as you love them. 

I've lost control

I consistently breakdown because I'm sick and worried about the one person who means something to me other then family. Right now I'm just tempted to give up, if he is? I miss the way things used to be. I don't care if I can do better! I know where my heart is and right now it is with him. 

Can I tell myself everything is okay? That tomorrow when I wake up everything will be back to normal? That you will be holding me again? I’m down on my knees wishing that everything will be back to the way it was before all of this. I want to try, with all my heart. I love you, cross my heart.

Because these words were never easier for me to say
Or her to second guess
But I guess
That I can live without you but
Without you I'll be miserable at best...

And I miss the lips that made me fly.

Didn’t mean to say I was going to leave you for someone else. I’m so misunderstood and confused. That “other” person was someone to fill the space that you were starting to make. I never intended it to be like this. I also never planned for you to not trust me, but the thing is when I feel neglected I try to fill that empty space with something or someone else. I never wanted to lose you, I’d hope to not lose you in any way. At this point I am willing to try and work everything out. To get everything straight again. I don’t want anyboy but you right now, I just can’t picture someone else to hold me whenever I need it. I want everything back to normal, I want you.

I can see the end. It's coming quick. The end.