Jason Mraz

Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can’t say it after all we’ve been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

Losing grip on the memories of my childhood. The influences on my life are slipping away. When I needed them the most, when my mom was gone all night, they stayed there to hold my hand through the night. Now it’s like I can feel the memory fade like an old polaroid. I am told to walk carefully around the border, “don’t push the limits, it’s a sensative subject.” When how can you say that when I want to scream and cry about how God shouldn’t be doing this to these whole-hearted people. Crying only makes them feel worse, they never want people to mourn in their pain. I have to be strong for them as they battle, but what if I can’t stand the idea of losing that certain someone to sickness. Hold in the tears and show them the best time of their lifes, enjoy these precious moments and love them as much as you can. I know that if they are taken I can’t hold up that wall, I let go and grieve for the pain of a slipping memory. I always know that you may feel like you’ve lost grip, but if you call upon them they are always their to guide you because they love you endlessly.

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really don't feel like I'm going home, its more like I heading towards a black hole. I really wish I was still in Texas, drama free.

ugh

the one thing that sucks about this whole trip out here is the amount of drama I'm getting from being here and people back in California. I hardly talk to him. the whole relationship almost ended yesterday on our 8 months. things are not the way I want them to be. I just want everything to be the way they were when I first met him. for one thing I still love and care for him more than anything. just a simple text or call would make me feel a lot better. whatever I'm wasting my "vacation" focusing on the bad that happened yesterday.

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have never felt more out of my skin than I do right now. things aren't looking well at this point, the drama followed me here to Texas.

I kinda just want to go home and forget everything that has happened and mend what it seems like a broken relationship with someone once again.

if i am your world

why dont you treat me like it? I try my hardest just so I can stay in your spotlight.